What's your excuse?

Fire in LA

Last night I could already smell the smoke, and see the haze where I live.
This picture is taken from where I work, back lot Universal Studios.

Remembering James Byron Dean

February 8, 1931-September 30, 1955

Thanks Jason  for reminding me by posting this today

My review of the new Fall TV season

This week I watched a couple of new TV shows, and I'm not that impressed. I really wanted to like "How I met Your Mother", but after watching it twice, I decided I didn't like it. Watched this week's episode of "My Name is Earl" and looks good, just as "Kitchen Confidential". I really wanted to like "Invasion" and "Night Stalker", but was very disappointed. I will give "Night Stalker" another change though. I think "Commander in Chief"  has potential, but don't think I will watch it. I like "Supernatural" and will keep on watching this show. I haven't seen "Prison Break", "Criminal Minds", Threshold", "E-Ring", "Inconceivable", "Ghost Whisperer" and "Grey Anatomy" (I know, is already 2nd season) yet. I'm kind of glad I don't like the shows, because I don't have time to watch TV, and I really don't wanna watch much TV. But as an actor, I feel I need to see at least each show ones, so I know what I can get called in for. Oh, about "Lost". After watching the first 3 episodes last season, I decided I didn't like it. Gave it another change by watching last week's recap and new episode, which was pretty cool, but after the last episode, I'm dropping "Lost" again.

For personal reasons I had to delete a post from yesterday. For those who read it...well, you read it. I hope it reached someone who could do something with it.

Have a great Friday.

Again

At 3:45am my dog Sierra woke up, got out of her kennel, and woke me up. I told her to go back to bed, which she did. Second night in a row, 3:45am...

Weird dream or reality?

This morning I woke up around 3:45am. I heard voices, sounding like some one on the phone. It even woke my dog, Sierra, up. I look at my night stand, and my phone just lies there closed (flip flop phone). I pick the phone up, and while closed, take it to my ear, and hear that the phone is playing a saved voice message from my agent last week about an audition (that I already went on). I open the phone, it's shows just it's regular picture, and not that it's dialing voice mail. I'm so sure that I was awake and not sleeping! I put the phone down, heard the voice mail voice asking what to do with the message, I didn't do anything, and it stopped. I went back to sleep. When I woke up I was very confused, and I still am. I really think I wasn't dreaming. Could it be a sign about the audition? Am I loosing it? I did watch Supernatural before I went to sleep...

When are we going to do something?

It's getting worse, and still no action...
See here .
www.savedarfur.com

:)

In your arms I can still feel the way you
want me when you hold me
I can still hear the words you whispered
when you told me
I can stay right here forever in your arms

And there ain't no way
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't no way
and there ain't not how
I'll never see that day....

'Cause I'm keeping you
forever and for always
We will be together all of our day
Wanna wake up every
morning to your sweet face,
always

In your heart, I can still hear
a beat for every time you kiss me
And when we're apart,
I know how much you miss me
I can feel your love for me in your heart

And there ain't no way
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't now way
and there ain't no how
I'll never see that day....

 In your eyes, I can still see
the look of the one who really loves me
The one who wouldn't put anything
else in the world above me
I can still see love for me in your eyes

Fun Weekend!

This past weekend was so much fun! Lots of love, romantic moments, great friends, great food, lots and lots of drinking, and Pavarotti!
Peter and I celebrated on Friday night by going to the same place as where we met a year ago.
It was a very nice evening with just the two of us. The rest of the weekend we spend in the company of good friends. Saturday night we we to the long awaited at the Hollywood Bowl to see Pavarotti saying goodbye to LA. Just a few hours before the concert, an extra ticket became available. Between Peter, myself and Vanguard, we called about 40 people, trying to find someone to go with us, and my friends Kasia and Yelena with their husbands. We offered the ticket for free, but to all our surprise, we were no able to get anyone to go, and so a ticket to a beautiful night at a sold out Hollywood went to waste. My favorite response of one of our friends who couldn't go was: "Pavarotti who?"
The night was spectacular! Of course we started with a picnic in front of the Bowl with lots of good food (thanks to Yelena!), and lots, lots, lots of alcohol.
Sunday my friend the KLM pilot Hans came to LA again, and he had a buddy of him also in town at the same time, so we (Hans, Vincent, Peter and myself) went to the Red Lion Beer Garden in Silverlake. Great place with awesome "bad" food like German sausages, and the best German beer. Unfortunately, Hans shared some sad news, saying this would be his last LA trip, because he's being promoted to Captain at the Boeing 737 (he's now co-pilot on the Boeing 747-400), which means only flight within Europe. So we had to take Peter to El Coyote for a typical LA experience with Peter and myself. Of course, I got way to drunk...
Thanks to everyone who celebrated this special weekend with us, and thanks to all the well wishes we received.

Fun packed anniversary weekend!

I know, I know, it must be sickening to read all our anniversary posts, but for us both it's the longest relationship we ever been in, and we're very happy to celebrate today 1 year we had our date at El Coyote. So last night we went to El Coyote, and got really drunk. This morning a relaxing breakfast at Basixs, and tonight we going to see Pavarotti at the Hollywood Bowl with a bunch of friends. Of course we'll do the pick nick and drinking thing before the event. Tomorrow I have a friend from The Netherlands in town, so more drinking! And don't worry, in between all these social events, we have plenty of alone time for us to enjoy:)...
Happy anniversary Peter!

WINK, WINK...

Fishering, thank you for winking at me at Nerve.com exactly a year ago today. I'm so lucky to have you in my life.

I love you

What if...

What if the rain would put me in a bad mood,
What if the ticket I got this morning ruined my day,
What if all my stomach, and back issues would bring me down,
What if my financial worries would make me sad?

Then I would understand why I feel blue,
I would take a set back, and move along,
I would be able to listen to my friends giving me advice,
I could see the sun behind the dark clouds,
I would see something positive in anything negative,
I could laugh all my worries away.

How come when I have everything going for me,
I can't see it, or try to destroy the good things,
How come I'm not able to reach out to my love, and my friends,
And ask them for help when I need it?

But what is there to say, when I can't even explain,
How can I ask for help, if I can't explain what I need help with,
How can I explain how I feel, if I don't even understand what I feel,

Luckily there is help,
Help from my loving and patient Fishering, many friends, and family,
And yes, Dr. Tom, excising and vitamins do help,
Both most help I get from Happy pills,
But finding the right pill for you is a tough, hard, and long road of trial and error.

So, it's not just a bad day, or a passing mood swing,
Just no specific reason or explanation for being depressed,
I just am...

Weekend!

I survived my short work week after coming back from vacation. It's wasn't as hard as i thought it would be. I'm glad the weekend is here though! This morning I had a "breath test", which meant fasting last night, and this morning at the hospital blowing in a bag 13 times every 15 minutes. The easiest test I've ever done.
Now it's almost weekend! After work I'm gonna spend lots of time with my dog, because she been acting a little crazy after I came back, tonight dinner at my place (but Fishering is cooking) with friends, tomorrow a party of a friend, and rest on Sunday. My room mate is out of town till Wednesday, so Fishering and I have the place to ourselves (and Sierra)...:)
The non-smoking, not drinking, different diet is all working out so far. Let's see how I adjust all of this into the weekend!
Have a great weekend everyone!

New beginning

So, back in LA, reality sinks in. Since yesterday I started a diet recommended by a nutritionist. I most likely have a "spastic colon" otherwise known as IBS. I know, I know, this mostly is a problem for women, end researches still don't know why women have more problems with this then man. Anyway, tomorrow I have one more test to do to see if it's really not something else then IBS. The test tomorrow is 3 hours, and I have to fast tonight. Then tomorrow morning I have to breath in some tube every 15 minutes, 13 times...
So the diet is pretty much changing my whole life style. I should not eat/drink or at least try to avoid as much as I can: red meat, carbonated drinks, alcohol, cigarettes, cheese, wheat bread, nuts, most fruits, chocolate, milk, yogurt, citrus fruits/juices and more. What I can have is white bread, plain bagels, white English muffins, papayas, bananas, soy milk/products, white chicken, fish, shrimp, rice. It's pretty much a non fat, non grease, low fiber diet. So last night I went shopping to fit this new diet. I guess it's going to be lots of soy and meat/cheese replacements (I heard that Whole Foods carries Veggie Cheese). I can drink some alcohol, suggested was Vodka with Cranberry juice, so that a positive thing. Man, this diet with the physical therapy I'll hopefully start soon, more exercise, and starting yoga, I will have a completely different life! Luckily I still have Fishering by my side:)...
Any suggestions on what to eat are welcome, especially when dinning out.

New York

I'm still very busy at work, getting back into the work thing, and living in LA thing. So, I will describe real quick how my trip to New York was in pictures (sorry for the messy lay out):
-   Slept through the red eye flight
-    Met my two Dutch friends Wednesday, my day of arrival

-    We all stayed with the fabulous Audra

-   lots of time in Central Park

-    Very nice weather

-    Lots of drinking and dancing

-   hanging out with great friends

-    enjoying New York's architecture

-    spotting 3 celebrities (maybe four): Eric Nies, Julia Stiles, Rosario Dawson, and I think Eugene Levy
-    Buying two very inappropiate presents for Fishering: A t-shirt saying "Bad Motha Fucka" from Sloppy Joe, and for the first time in my life I thought it would be fun to have my portrait drwn by Central Park, with when it was done, I had no clue what to do, so Fishering no has it:)...

-    Attending the US Open Men's final - Federer-Agassi

-    remembering 9/11

-    And just crazy good old times

I LOVE NEW YORK!

I'M BACK!

back in LA, back at work, after a week and a half off, of which one week spend in New York! It was awesome, many things I could write, but I'm swamped at work, with getting back into the LA groove (work, bills, mail, e-mails, etc.).
Thanks for all your messages and comments about how much you missed me when I was gone...

Okay, I got none, and I won't be bitter, because I didn't miss you guys either:)! I had to much fun to miss anything, except for Fishering and my dog Sierra of course...

NYC

I know, I know, I'm on vacation, and shouldn't blog, but I'm sitting next to my friend Danielle, and she had to check her mail, so I'm killing time. I'm visiting her at the French Culinary School in SoHo, where she will graduate as a pastry chef in two weeks!

Anyway, I'm having the best time with Audra, Maaike and Pieter in NYC! The weather is great, the city is awesome, and I'm spending way to much money...

I did write two postings in Word at Boston Airport Wednesday morning while waiting for my connection to New York, so when I get a change, I'll post them, probably when I'm back in LA, next week.

Okay, hope everyone in LA is doing well, and look for me in the audience at the US Open Men's final Sunday afternoon! I'll wear something orange...

Just quick...

Last night I promised Mercury  I would write at least one post today before I leave work, and he would post a new one too. I'm leaving work now (10:30am!), and I won't be back till Wednesday the 14th! Tuesday night I'm flying to New York. Hmmm, maybe I'm going to miss the Holocaust stories... Anyone know a Holocaust Museum that I can go to in NYC in case I miss the Holocaust???
Last night lots of fun with Fishering , Vanguard , Groeg, Mercury , Carrie, Gisele and many more at El Coyote! Celebrity citing: Topher Grace.
Tomorrow night a BBQ with some friends from work, I believe a pool BBQ party at Havenhurst Place on Sunday or Monday, and then Tuesday night I off to the Big Apple. Can't wait! VACATION!
Alright, I got to go!
Have a great Holiday Weekend everyone, where ever you are!