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I kept believing that Brad and Angelina were just friends, even after the Africa Beach/England photos, but after seeing these pictures, I just have to believe that it's true. Waht a fool he is! I think Angelina is hot, but Jennifer Aniston...please, she is number one!
Thanks to Pink is the new blog
Yesterday I had the worst audition process in my life! Oh no, don't worry, I was flawless in my performance, but the organization was the worst ever! My "time" was at 5:10pm at 2050 Bundy Casting Studios. It was for a Nissan commercial. I show up early, because traffic was on my side, so I got there at 4:15pm. It was so crowded, I couldn't even see the sign in sheet. I had to stand in line to sign up for about 15 minutes. About an hour after that, my Polaroid was taken, and about 30 minutes later it was finally time to go into the room...with 17 other guys! We were the remaining people left (it was now about 6pm, all the other casting directors for other projects had left and the place was empty besides us), and the 17 guys were in one room for 4 different parts. The casting director said that at this point that didn't matter anymore, and we were put on camera, 5 at the time, just saying our names, showing our profiles and answering the question "How are you today?". So, 2 hours later I'm back in my car, not even having had a real audition for the part I was called in for (driver)! I was so freaking pissed! And you know what? The same guy who was leading this casting call, did a call two weeks ago for a Mini Spec commercial I was called in for, and the same thing: unorganized, and an hour wait. I think I will talk to my agent about this next time I go to his office...
So, I had never heard of Sunset Junction until last week when a friend of mine forwarded an e-mail about HereTV looking for people to help at their booth. 
I'm going to New York next week, so I need all the extra money I can get, so Saturday night from 6pm to 11pm, and Sunday from 1pm till 10pm, I was promoting HereTV in the soring heat. But I had so much fun! The people I worked with were awesome, the festival was great, the atmosphere was awesome, so it was a great weekend. Now it's Monday, and I'm tired (especially my feet), even tanner then I was before the weekend, but it was a great experience, and good money in my pocket!
Unfortunately, I had to get up early for an doctors appointment. Met with a neurosurgeon, and like my friend Vanguard already told me, I don't need surgery for my back, but physical therapy will do. So, Fishering will be happy that my back problems will lead to a six pack by all the back and stomach strengthening I'll do over the next months:)
picture courtesy of Chasing Mercury ...thanks!
Friends who know me from my early days in LA know how I felt working for the Hilton in a suburb from LA. For 3 1/2 they had me as a cheap foreign employee, and I felt I was in hell. Yes, I'm thankful that they sponsored me with my work permit, but that made them able to do whatever they wanted with me. You remember those days, right Timm/Susan/Jeremy? I guess they used me and I used them. That day I won the Green Card lottery was the happiest day of me life! I was free.
So, today, I'm living in Beverly Hills, far away from that hotel, but walking distance from their headquarters (where I even had trainings to become their lap puppy, huh, manager). This afternoon, I had to drop off a headshot at Aquila/Wood Casting on Civic Center Dr (btw, I just finished watching a movie that was cast by Deborah Aquila, "Sex, Lies & Videotapes"...good karma?). I took my dog Sierra, and on my way to drop off the headshot, I pass Hilton Headquarters. I remember my Hilton nightmare days, and also that I forgot to bring a doggie waste bag... Yes, you see where this is going...My sweet dog Sierra took a huge dump right in front of the Hilton Headquarters! Ooops! How's that for revenge?
Just a quick recommendation: Swimming Pool. Ludivine Sagnier is beautiful!
Just when I thought it was almost over...
My job cataloguing and indexing Dutch Holocaust survivor testimonies was going to end the end of September due to the fact that we would be done with the Dutch testimonies. I'm very grateful of being part of this historical project, but I'm really burned out of listening to the Holocaust stories, day in day out, for almost two years now. So, I was really looking forward to the end of September, my lay off package, applying for unemployment and spend the following months just focusing on acting without having to have a day job.
Now, today I received an e-mail from the head of our department. The entire department will cease to exists on December 23rd, due to the Foundation being out of money (I knew this from when I started). Now the twist: for me there will be enough English and German testimonies to work on to stay till the end, December 23rd, with an extra week paid, for Christmas. So, I will get my lay off package, which will be 6 weeks paid, and an additional week. If I stay till the end...
Now, even though I'm burned out, the best thing would be is to stay a couple more months. It will be though, but luckily I have my NYC vacation coming up (Sept 7 - Sept 13), which will recharge me with enough energy to listen to Holocaust stories for 3 more months...
it is the best thing to do, financially, timing wise, so I did decide to stay till the end of the year, and then I have pilot season (January-April) to be totally 100% focused on acting with more money on my savings account.
Now, 3 more months of listening to Holocaust testimonies will be approximately 504 hours of Holocaust stories...
Just thought I post this , since it didnd't get approved, we might never see it again.
GO ON AND VISIT HIM, AND SHOW SUPPORT BEFORE HE DECIDES TO STOP BLOGGING AGAIN!
FISHERING
Welcome back:)
It exists! My friend Kaline told me about last year in Amsterdam about how cool it was. Back in the States, I tried to explain this phenomenon to Fishering, but we both were left with many questions. Because there is a band playing, but you can't hear their instruments. Everyone is listening to their own thing on these headphones... Really weird!
This is what it looks like:
By writing my previous pathetic whining post, my blog came back!
I'm soooo happy!
I MISS BLOGGING!!!
Okay, I've mentioned it before, but I'll mention it again: I'm pee shy. I know, it's embarrassing and I feel naked and vulnerable to put it out here, but it's true. Having mentioned this, peeing while out in public at bars or restaurants can be a though experience. And I'm not even talking about #2 (apparently Banana Republic has the best private restrooms for those! Thanks for sharing Mercury!).
So last night I was at I-Candy for the first time. Me and Fishering went there to celebrate Rye's Birthday. Got there early and left late, so I was there when it was empty, busy, overcrowded, and emptying out towards 1am. Now, the restrooms and I-Candy are extremely uncomfortable for a regular pee shy guy like me. You walk in, and there are 4 (or 5) urinals placed against the wall (still smelling like fresh paint). Now the other wall next to them is covered with mirrors! No dividers, mirrors=very uncomfortable! Luckily they have one stall, of which the door does not lock, which I didn't mind, because I wasn't due for a #2. Come on, how can a pee shy person pee there? Okay, I understand that in WeHo, and "Gay" bars, for most guys a visit to restrooms like the one at I-Candy is the highlight of their evening. I just don't get that. No offense to all of you out there who do enjoy this form of male bonding, but it just doesn't work for me.
Anyway, it was a fun evening, little weird ending, but for that story about Swingers check out Mercury's post.
Oh, a big shout out to Annemarie from Chicago! It was nice to meet you last night! Thanks for reading my blog!
The ticket to Coldplay promised to me Tuesday night by my friend, was at the same time already given away to some one by her boyfriend. It's no ones fault, can blame anyone, can't be upset at anyone, but why is it so hard to get over the disappointment? I guess I'm not meant so see Coldplay perform live this time...
:(
Just by coincidence to help someone out, two days ago I became familiar with the Danish band Carpark North . I have a Dutch ITunes account, so I have access to music not yet released in America. Of course, I like some song better then other, but overall the album "All Things to All People" is very cool! My favorite song so far is "The Beasts". Check out their website for the bizarre video to "Human".
A BIG THANKS to Rye for making me aware this band exists!
The new Esquire, issue September 2005, is very good reading material! I was disappointed about last months issue, but this one has many interesting articles. There is one about the media attention Tom and Katie are getting (very funny), one about someone "making" art from Hitler figures (made me mad, and I probably will sent a letter to the magazine), and I'm still reading an article about Jesse Jackson.
Just wanted to share...
I'm going to see Coldplay next week!!! I'm beyond myself with joy (don't know if that's English, but I like the expression)...
Last night, I had a little dinner party with Fishering and two friends. These two friends are two dutch girls, and with one of them Fishering and I had a great dinner a couple of months ago. So I prepared a great meal: Potato gratin with extra cheese, asparagus sauteed in garlic and Thai peanut sauce, Dutch meatballs, salad and for dessert a homemade Apple Pie! Yeah, I spend some time in the kitchen, but it was fun! I love throwing dinner parties! I really love to cook too! Time for my own restaurant/cafe, "The Dutch Way"!
Any way, my friend Gisele said she was going to Coldplay next week, and that they were still looking for some one to go, because they have an extra ticket!!!??? Of course I jumped of my chair, choked on a piece of meatball, and started screaming of joy like a little girl! So, yeah, I'm going next week! Thanks Gisele! 
It was a great dinner, lots of whine, champagne and such good company! Really needed this evening to pull me back to earth and to realize what a good life I have!
With the help of Tylenol, and lots of water and Orange juice, the hang over headache went away pretty fast. Faster than that huge pile of dishes...
...wanted to share my good hair day:)...
Hmmm, the picture doesn't really do my hair well...
:)
...enough with that feeling sad stuff! I'm tired of it! I'm doing tonight what women do when they feel down: cooking, eating, drinking and baking!
I started with making spaghetti with Dutch meatballs. Yes, Dutch meatballs taste different as American meatballs! It was delicious! Now I'm about to have non fat Dulce de leche frozen yogurt, with non fat whipped cream. After that, I will make a Dutch Apple Pie. And yes, there is something special about a Dutch Apple Pie! Why else would it be so famous???
Oh, and of course, in my opinion, no man, or woman, should could without a drink in his her hand, so...cheers! No, I'm not drunk!
While the apple pie is in the oven, I will watch a movie, not sure what yet! I'll make it through this. Fake it till you make it...
Boy, Saturday was soooo much fun at Hurricane Harbor at Six Flags! Fishering and I played as two kids going down the water slides (please, bring on the "going down" jokes), and playing in the water. I must say, I was more of a kid then Fishering, but that's always the case.
Sunday night, after a BBQ with my acting class, I just got very sad. I drove home, and just wanted to cry. Go to bed and cry. I was exhausted, my body sore, and just very sad. When I got home, I spoke with Fishering on the phone, and I'm so lucky to have him to listen to me, and to let me be sad, but trying to make me feel better at the same time.
At the BBQ with my fellow acting students, and acting coach, I had to tell them I won't be coming back to class the next 8 weeks starting this Wednesday. Everybody was very understanding after I told them why.
On Thursday morning I received a phone call from my doctor with the MRI results of my spine taken a week before. She ordered the MRI after my annual check up, when she picked up on some of my recent back pains, and other weird symptoms. First of all, the results are not live threatening, but they did effect me a lot. The way my doctor explained the results to me, it made it look like to only way to fix my back would be surgery. Now, it is true, but after a explanation of the results by Vanguard (thank you soooo much), I was reassured that surgery might not be necessary, at least not at this point.
Two things came out of the MRI. First of all I have a disk herniation in my upper spine, which is apparently very common, and easy to threat. The second thing is a Lumbar Spinal Stenosis, which in short means that my lower back spine is too narrow. Now, to have this widened, surgery is necessary, but as Vanguard explained to me, not needed in my case. I'm seeing a neurosurgeon soon, to discuss the possibilities for me. This could be physical therapy, injections, medication, but I won't know for sure until after I met with the specialist, and discussed the MRI and my symptoms with him/her.
The reason I probably freaked out more then necessary is that there are serious back problem issues in my family. I also stood by my good friend Corri when she went through her spinal issues 2 years back. She had to have a tumor removed from her spinal cord in her neck which was a very risky operation and took a long time for her to recover. So, whenever I hear spine or spinal problems, I get a little emotional. So, the last four days I've been not myself. I forget things, am very tired all the time, mood swings (yes, some one did mention that it looked like I'm having my period. Thanks Carrie! And yes Rene , I do agree that men have the period too), and just a little scared and sad about the next couple of months. My job ends the end of September, I'm facing these things to heal my back, and financially I'm in a very bad place. Luckily I still have health insurance with my job, and when the job ends, I will have to take the COBRA plan, which is an additional $250 per month. To top this all off, I'm still working with my shrink to find the right meds for me. When shit hits the fan, I'm just very scared I fall back into the deep hole called depression, and I'll fight hard to not let that sickness get a hold of me again, and drag me down. Luckily I have good friends, and most of all Fishering. Please be patience with me these days...
Woorden zijn een teken van bestaan
In overvloed of zwijgend zonder naam
Ze zeggen me niet wat je eigenlijk voelt
En ik leg ze naast me neer
Tederheid
Een intimiteit die iedereen bevrijdt
Dwars door het vuur
Recht door de muur van eenzaamheid
Tederheid
Opent en leidt
Je ver van alle strijd
Tederheid
Gevoeligheid maakt menselijk en klein
Die kwetsbaarheid vertelt ons wie we zijn
Want zonder gebaar wordt het stil om je heen
Ook al zie je dat niet meer
Fishering and I are going on a date today! We're about to leave for Hurricane Harbour Six Flags! All day long riding water slides! I know I'm 30, but ... I'M SO EXCITED!
Have a great weekend and stay cool!
Two days ago on my last walk of the day with Sierra, I ran into this
couple with a small dog. Sierra just started giving kisses to this dog
and they seemed very comfortable with each other. I saw that one of the
owners was wearing a t-shirt of The Amanda Foundation , and I told her
that I got Sierra from that place. So did they! We calculated that they
most likely were at the Foundation at the same time, which explained
their bond.
This morning, I ran into this guy I started talking to, because he came
out my favorite car of all time: A VW Karmen Ghia. Sierra kept getting
close to him, wanting to climb inside of him, and lick his face. She
was so loving towards this man, a stranger to us... I thought. Until I
saw his Amanda Foundation T-shirt. When I told him that I got Sierra
from there, bells started ringing with him, and he started petting
Sierra with so much love. He recognized her, and she him. So beautiful,
how dogs can recognize people and dogs from a long terrible time ago,
and now be so loving when they encounter them again. When we walked
home, Sierra had this very satisfied look on her face, and I feel very
lucky to have her in my life.
The last couple of days I just ain't feeling it. You know, just no inspiration to write. On Monday I took the day off, because we spend the night in Dana Point. The wedding was beautiful! Like I wrote before, this was the first wedding I ever attended, and it was very private, small, and NOT religious! Just beautiful. I didn't have many expectations, but as Fishering and I were getting ready, I started to get nervous. I must say though...we both looked stunning, and extremely handsome in our suits! Had a little pre drink in our hotel room (one bottle of champagne, and bloody Mary's by the pool), and at arrival at the Ritz Carlton, wine before the ceremony began at 6pm. The location was amazing! The wedding was set on a cliff, overlooking the hills and the ocean. 
I never expected me to cry, but once the bride showed up, tears ran till the ceremony was over and I had another drink in my hand. Something very strange about people: above our beautiful wedding, there was this guy talking on his cell phone from his balcony in a very loud manner. If you see that two people are about tho get married, wouldn't you go inside or hang up. This guy was so rude and oblivious of his surroundings, that in my mind I pulled out my gun and shot his head of his body. Next to his head splashing on the ground would shatter the cell phone against the rocky cliffs...
Back to reality. After the ceremony the drinking continued, great food was served, and yes, lots of dancing followed. Fishering and I got so freaking drunk, that when I was driving back on Monday early afternoon, I think I would've still gone to jail for drunk driving if I was pulled over.
Now, this week so far has been all about my acting career. Every morning I spend several hours going through breakdowns, preparing envelopes, making drops all over the city, and that even before I go to work. I've been very lucky with auditions for commercials lately, now I just need to book them. Now I'm focusing on a very interesting project which will be a great opportunity for me. Will not go into details, don't wanna jinx it. More about that hopefully later this week or early next week. But I really feel the hard work, blood, sweat, tears, rejection, and money are starting to lead to something! I'm very happy and excited! Just don't feel like writing, so this is it!
Even though the wedding was Sunday night, I'm still recovering from it... I'm feeling still very tired and blah from too much alcohol. I will not post about it today, because I'm just not able to do so yet. All I can do is do my job, read blogs and magazines and counting the hours so I can go home and chill. Hopefully with a good movie tonight instead of what I watched last night: Alexander. I really wanted to like it, and I enjoyed some parts of it, but I understand now why it was a big flop.
Not sure what I'm watching tonight. Oh, quick movie tip: The Upside of Anger!
There's something wrong with my blog. The layout is all messed up. I'll see if I can fix it. Had a wedding Sunday night at The Ritz Carlton Laguna Niguel, and I will blog about that later. Having passed 30, it takes longer to recover from a massive hang over...
More later!
How do you get inkt (from pen) stains out of hard wood floors??? My dog Sierra got hold of a pen, and I now have this large stain in the floor...:(
Tips???
This morning it wasn't too bad getting up at 6:30am. I have to get all my work done by 11am, because I have two auditions later on.
Can't wait for the weekend! Sunday I'm going to a wedding for the first time! Friends of Fishering are getting hitched at the Ritz Carlton in Laguna Miguel, and we have a hotel room, so it's a mini vacation for us!
For some reason this week seemed to take forever to go by, so I'm very happy the weekend is almost there! Good luck with the Friday everyone, and have a great weekend!
I need Coldplay tickets!!!!!! HELP! Tips, suggestions, tickets anyone????
Last night I made a quick stop at The Grove, looking for a shirt to match my suit for the wedding I'm attending on Sunday (btw, this will be the first wedding I will be attending ever!).
First, I see a crowd of people at Barnes & Noble. I peak through the window, and the super white red haired John Stevens from the last American Idol was signing copies of his CD. Random!
Then, on my way to the GAP, there is this girl performing on a huge stage at the fountain with her band. In front of the stage a bunch of photographers and camera people. It was Mimi Driver performing! I must say, she doesn't sound bad. Her music sounded as little boring though... I was able to take a picture of her beautiful back:)...
Btw, I did not find a shirt...
An oldie: "Disarm" by Smashing Pumpkins
Thanks to David I decided to put things in perspective. This week so far did not start off in the desired directions with some health issues, which put me in a foul mood and drained me from all my energy. In such a state, it's easy (especially for me), to fall in a negative downwards spiral, but I'm fighting against it. So, David today brought me back to my motto in live: "It's not having what you want, but wanting what you've got" (thanks to Sheryl Crow).
- Fishering
- great friends in LA
- great friends in Amsterdam
- family in good health
- a great car
- Sierra, my dog
- a great place to live in Beverly Hills 90210
- still a steady paycheck
- knowing that what I do for that paycheck means something to society
- Health Insurance
- IPod
- Laptop
- dreams
- acting
- a free ticket to New York
- credit cards with no interest till July 2006
- good hair
- nice eyes
- relatively healthy
- nice clothes
- great colleagues at work
- happy pills
- supporting family/friends
- unemployment coming up
- photos and memories of places I've been and people I've met
- just enough money to support myself and my dog, and have fun (debts are worries for tomorrow)
- a blog where I can vent
So, I don't have it so bad. Yes, health could be better and financially it could get a lot better, but I'm doing good. "I have plenty of money and more is coming", my friend Corri always tells me to repeat to myself, and it's true. I'm an immigrant, living my dream! I want everything I've got, and it makes me happy.
"Dance Me to the End of Love", by Madeleine Peyroux
I just booked my ticket to NYC! Had enough miles saved up, so taking a vacation just after Labor Day. I'll have about 6 days! Might go to New Haven with a few friends for a couple of days, but most of all I just wanna be in NYC.
I've been there a couple of times before, but not enough to have my "regular" favorite places. So I'm open for any suggestions on where to go: restaurants, bars, coffee shops, anything!
I'm so excited!
Jaron: To Cry Out
Name Origin: Hebrew
Number of Syllables: 2.00
Gender: Male
More interesting facts about the name Jaron:
Lucky Number: 4
Ruling Planet: Uranus
Element: Air
Primary Color: Green
Traits:
Inclined to appear strange and eccentric because s/he is usually ahead
of her/his time. Very interested in the occult; in psychic research.
Inclined to do anyting out of the ordinary. Strong intuitive
tendencies. Can be bitingly sarcastic if crossed. Believes in liberty
and equality. Can usually predict the probable outcome of actions and
businesses.
They didn't have any results for my dutch name, but this is pretty close! Thanks Mel ! Check your name out!
I'm in a blah mood today. Last night I had a terrible "stomach migraine", and every time I have such a bad attack, it drains me of all my energy... So I feel blah today, want to hide in my bed and stay under the sheets till I don't know when. Wish I could finally a way to live without this stomach problem... Wish they could finally figure out what it is, what is causes, and how to threat it...
Blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............
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